There have been so, so many changes in our lives within the past year alone and not one of them has made me feel rested!
As a mum, I know it’s totally natural to blame yourself for things that happen in your family or to one of your children. It doesn’t help the situation but it is a goto response.
When we began to realise that Mo’s development was not at the level it should be, I immediately backtracked over the past few months and wondered if all the changes we had experienced could be the cause behind it…
Was it the breakdown of my marriage? Was it the unscheduled ‘temporary moves’ to stay with family when I was feeling overwhelmed? Was it when we finally moved out of his father’s house? Was it the unsettling feelings of being in a new house?
These are just a few of the questions that went through my mind but I knew deep down that it wasn’t anything that anyone did, it’s just how it is!
Although the changes I made were absolutely necessary for the wellbeing of us all, it did not feel like ‘taking a break’ .. quite the opposite, actually! But I’m thankful that we’re feeling much more settled now and I can look back at all that we have been through and take a breath…
“Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by discomforts”
Arnold Bennett
Normal? What's that?! 
It is very easy to blame ourselves for all that goes unplanned and to think about the what could have beens. I have (and if I am being completely honest, continue to do to some degree) done this when I think about the birth of both my premature boys. I worry that our move to the city of Phoenix from the nature of Washington was detrimental to their childhoods. But some things are out of our hands and those other decisions, well we make them as best we can with the information we have at hand.
I am glad you are feeling settled and recognize that changes quite often do not equate to a break.
LikeLiked by 1 person
I appreciate your response, thank you so much and I’m looking forward to reading your stories too ❤
LikeLike